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[Irene Zundel letterhead]

June 16
1997

ingrid-

i told ernst I am sending this fax & he will see it, so don't bother sending it back and bitching.

did you notice in your picture in the toronto newspaper your left eye is about one inch higher than the right & both eyes slant at an odd angle?

ernst & I, gerry & elizabeth all noticed it & gaped in horror at how positively freakish you look! no wonder you fall on escalator steps & have trouble seeing. foolishly you blame your contacts. I think you should blame dr. facelift or your adoring dentist who smashed bones in your face to reconstruct it & bolt in your false teeth. I truly believe there is a medical malpractice case there, ingrid. compare the picture in the paper, which is a full face shot with

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your promotional picture, picture on your book's dust jacket, or on the video ernst shot of you. you have 2 level eyes in all of those pictures. it is obvious to honest observers here that someone has done something horribly wrong to you.

i understand why you went the face lift, face reconstruction, tooth caps & whitening, hair dyeing, beauty walking, yoga, meditating route. after all, at 62, after a 2 yr relationship with ernst, & his rejection of you for me - age 39, slim, blonde, pretty, vivacious & unwrinkled it must have unleashed some horrific insecurity in you. and he dumped you & married me so fast your old bones weren't even cold in the

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grave of your dead relationship, so to speak! you left here the end of jan 1996, I came the 3rd week of feb & never left. he married me 3 weeks after that in march of 96. he certainly didn't grieve the end of whatever you deluded yourself into thinking the two of you had. subsonsciously, you envied my youth & thought stupidly a young ingrid could get ernst back. of course, you haven't succeeded at that despite your machinations, manipulations, emotive bullshit scenes, private correspondence or anything else. personally - you should have saved yourself the financial drain of thousands of dollars, the physical pain, the mental delusion, the ridiculous behavior that evokes pity in

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all of us who understand it, & now, the worse of all - an oddly grotesque appearance that may be permanent at worst, or painful & costly to fix at best. why, of why, ingrid, didn't you adhere to your own psycho-babble & special ed brainwashing? where was your self-love? your self- acceptance? your self-esteem? couldn't you like & feel good about ingrid just the way she was? you claim to worship at the altar of mind. you pride yourself in your accomplishments. you boast of your doctorate, your writting, your awards (ad nauseum...) rather than dwelling

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on that, why did you freak out & start reconstructing, altering, & hacking away at the physical?

has it left any beauty in your soul? are you at peace? free from rage, jealousy, resentment, bitterness, regrets? have you moved on with your life & found your own happiness?

no you haven't.

instead you tried to bed my husband, wreck my marriage, poison co-worker's minds through vicious, jealousy induced gossip, lied about me, maligned my character, denigrated my work, placed horrendous stress on my beleagured husband, caused a multitude of problems and spread your black soul's contents

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over the FAX line numerous times - to the horror AND DANGER of MY HUSBAND... whom you once claimed to love & wanted to marry yourself.

and what has it gotten you, ingrid? did you succeed in ruining my marriage? NO did you get ernst back? NO are you sexually satisfied? I doubt it. are you in love? does someone love you back? have you found someone to share your life with? I doubt it. are you happy & at peace? obviously not.

why do you endlessly stoop to poisonous faxes, tantrums, emotive, manipulating, threats & childish behavior WHEN IT DOESN'T WORK?

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what emotional perks are you getting from doggedly sticking to your behavior of the last 16 months? why do you need to persist in it so badly? and mostly --- why do you allow me, my life, and my business such a stranglehold on your psyche, soul, emotions, and happiness?

wouldn't you be better off by having a "who the hell cares about her, i have a life of my own" attitude? wouldn't living well be the best revenge against a man who so quickly & coldly dumped you & replaced you with someone young enough to be your daughter?

why do you give away your power & your dignity when you wail how everything is "torture" and you beg "stop it"?

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rather than despise & resent you like most women would, I find you utterly pathetic most of the time, & other times truly laughable.

you know ernst well enough to know he is a pure national socialist & a believer in karma & destiny. you know he believes in the ebb & flow of life - some passing out of your sphere & others flowing in - in struggle & strength, in eugenics & euthanasia, in race & honor & duty, heroic behavior, personal sacrifice despite personal suffering, unselfishness, and doing right despite the tactics of the enemy. in applying his personal yardstick to you, ingrid, he found you sadly

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lacking in numerous areas & has no regrets in choosing me over you. in fact, many times he has expressed relief that the fates made me mrs. zundel instead. why?

first, your vicious attack of anne whom, he loved for 30 long years. he interpreted your contempt for her as she was someone he foolishly & with poor judgement [sic] chose to be with. that affront to his character still stings him to this day. he feels perfectly capable as a judge of character & emotionally he is no fool, schoolboy or buffoon. besides that, he cared deeply for her. when you strike at her, you strike at him. you repeated your same behavior where I was concerned. he was under my spell, I was ruining his business, I was a crazy goat, destructive beaver, and a "creature" he needed to control.

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he picked the wrong woman. he was a fool to marry me. he threw away you - the obvious correct choice! stupid, blind, crotch-driven, influenced, mislead, pathetic ernst. when you malign his decisions & choices & imply he has poor judgement, & make him out to be an utter fool, he utterly & eternally resents it. he is bitter towards everyone who has been unduly, unnecessarily, & unjustly mean to Anne or myself. he finds you to be a person of poor character to treat him like that & people he cares about. he is turned off by your viciousness.

second, your emotional instability. ernst first thought you to be utterly dependable, solid as a rock, reliable, a stalwart, dig your heels in, tough, surviviing mennonite peasant. he truly admired your accomplishments & your dogged endurance in lifes struggles.

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when you showed yourself to be insanely jealous, vicious, high-strung, weepy, threatening, nightmarish, catty, gossipy, utterly un-cooperative in small courtesies like phone etiquette, his opinion & admiration flew out the window. he was & still is, so shocked by your behavior where I am concerned that he is frankly glad you are not his wife. you could never stand the danger, rape threats, death threats, political treachery, violence, demonstations & assorted oddities that come with his life. you just aren't thick skinned, analytical, rational & emotionally controlled enough. he sees even now your mood swings as a threat to his security. He has told you that before. Yet you stubbornly

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refuse to get a grip on yourself, move on with your own life & give your best effort to the cause. you refuse to be steady, reliable & hardworking even though YOU KNOW you are causing him harm. do you subconsciously want to bring him down ingrid? for what?

ernst is a magnificent, heroic, larger than life, brave, honorable, decent man who has fought like hell for you & everyone else despite a cruel & enormous cost to his soul, life, money, reputation, family, etc...

can't you dig in your peasant heels, do a great job for history, wish ernst & I well, & seek your own happiness in life & leave us to ours?

even today you had to take

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another catty shot at me, although you thought you could cleverly disguise it in the text of a z-gram. how petty! how childish! how emotional - again - for the umpteenth time!

that is another reason you aren't mrs. zundel, ingrid. you are EMOTION DRIVEN not CAUSE DRIVEN. ernst is definitely cause driven, controlled in his emotions, ever laboring under huge pain & stress for the race. I am definitely cause driven & controlled in my emotions, putting ernst & his victories first. that is why I had the sensitivity & magnanamous, kind, spirit to stay away from court where I rightfully belonged

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as his wife. I wanted you to do well in testifying, so ernst can win & the cause goes on.

did you control your emotions? sublimate your pain in the face of duty? did you give the tiniest bit by promising civil behavior on the phone, or professional respect? did you even make a small social gesture by shaking my hand?

no. the cause be damned. ingrid raged & sobbed & tried to get my husband to dump the wife & kid at home & come back to her bedroom. after you leave toronto there are more cold phone calls between us and snarky faxes from you. again ernst had to scold you as a 2 yr old.

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and round & round & round we go, dizzily & nauseatingly.

ingrid. get this clear. ernst survived before without the zundelsite. he can replace you, promote his 22 mirror sites, start a new website with someone else & have it famous & heavily visited in short order. ernst succeeds brilliantly at everything he does. he commands world media attention, he is a name & peresonality with huge drawing power. he has a great grasp of self-promotion. he has durability. he has his own media. he can make ANY "Zundelsite" a success & quickly. you are NOT IRREPLACEABLE. you do not have ernst by the short hairs where he endlessly has to put up with your endless emotional abuse of both of us. you are still em-

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ployed because:

1) ernst is a decent man. he doesn't want to unemploy you because you are a past "flame" like he is jilting you utterly. he realizes you have a retarded son to care for & your own mouth to feed. he endures your crap for your own self protection, to give you a meal ticket.

2) he appreciates & values your skills. your german grammar is excellent. you type. you write. you work hard. you are computer proficient. you know how to maintain a web page.

3) the site is already successful. why start a new one? if it isn't broken, don't fix it.

4) he doesn't want the derision of the jews that they shut you down.

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5) he knows his wife is mature enough & cause driven enough to handle a professional relationship with you. he hopes you'll grow up & be the same way so the cause goes on, your income keeps rolling in, and we keep dealing blows to our enemies via the world wide web.

I know 5 languages ingrid. I have a private school education & some college. my wechsler tests & iq tests show me to be a genius with a measurable iq of 156. I do valuable work for the cause & I am well suited for my life as mrs. ernst zundel -- despite your derision for my lack of capitalization & my happy faces on faxes.

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I am secure enough in my person that I don't diet, dye my hair, bemoan a few crows feet, surgically alter my appearance, cap my teeth, wear make-up & try to look 20 yrs younger than I am.

I am secure enough in my personality that I don't viciously & vindictively attack you unprovoked AS YOU DID ME when you had to type my contribution to the newsletter about the ARA.

any e-mail or faxes that I since sent you, you brought on yourself! when I had the opportunity in toronto IN PERSON , to pay you back for your whorish & vicious behaviour, I stayed away to spare you emotionally.

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I even offered to be a lady, shake your hand, & bury the hatchet.

your continued bad loser mentality & childish & mean behavior only serves to keep you alienated from ernst & to have his former respect & affection for you greatly reduced. he is saddened by your lack of co-operation, & weary & disgusted. one day he will reach his limit.

if you TRULY miss having access to ernst, feeling part of the team, crave contact, loathe the isolation you feel, & are really saddened by how things changed between you & ernst & you can no longer talk,

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try this:

fax 4 simple words to my husband -

ernst, I am sorry.

then determine in your soul you will send ONLY professional faxes & have ONLY professionally behavior on the phone.

go out & make an enjoyable life for yourself, & let us have ours.

ingrid, it is really that simple if you allow it to be.

in closing, I will say this. I know this fax is horrificly painful for you. you have inflicted

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huge pain on me & my husband, and you started it with the ara newsletter.

with this fax, I want to end it FOREVER. I'll swallow what I sent back in self defence. All personal shit ends now. From here on out, the 3 of us have a perfectly smooth, professional relationship, because we all will it to be that way & can act like adults for the cause.

don't try anymore to force your hand or cause problems, ingrid. you will come out on the losing end. I can assure you my husband values his marriage & his happiness more than your website. live in peace.

frau z

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